Today I Failed, But That Don’t Make Me A Failure.

Hello everyone.
Today I failed, but that don’t make me a failure. Actually I can even say that I’m still kind of great. It’s just that today my anxiety got the best out of me. But that’s okay, I can’t win every battle.
Today I had an appointment with a CBT therapist. Except that I didn’t go. Just like the last time I had an appointment with her. I freaked out and I just couldn’t get myself to go there. And I was so scared to call them to say that I wouldn’t be able to make it this time either. I thought they where going to be so disappointed with me, or even give up on me. But they didn’t. I even talked to the CBT therapist and we decided that we’re going to give it another try soon.

Today I Failed, But That Don't Make Me A Failure

Today I failed, but that don’t make me a failure. I know that now. Eight months ago I would had been beating myself up over it for days. Calling myself names and thinking that I was the weakest person alive. This time I wallowed in self-pity for an hour or two, before realizing that it really isn’t the end of the world.
I’m not a failure. I am fighting my anxiety in every way I can. I won’t be strong every day. But I will win in the end. And that’s what matters. Right?

XOXO

14 Comments

  1. You are not a failure. You got one step closer to your next step toward conquering your overwhelming anxiety, and that makes you a stronger person. There’s some statistic about how it takes people quitting smoking something like 11 times before it becomes permanent, but that certainly doesn’t mean those first 10 times were a waste of time. It’s a process. You can do this!

  2. You absolutely did not fail at anything! You booked the appointment – that’s such a huge step! You also was able to call and cancel – again, such a huge step to actually have the courage to ring and tell them you weren’t coming instead of just not showing up… And finally, you spoke to the therapist! You have shown that you are on the right path to getting where you want to be, and that’s all that matters. You might think you failed, but I’m sure so many others would love to be as brave as you were to go ahead and book it to begin with! You’ll get there, and all us blogging girls are here to support you along the way xx

  3. So much love for this post. You are so right about that. Though you didn’t do what you wanted to accomplish today – doesn’t mean that you will do it in the future. You still were able to talk with them and they were able to work with you. That’s fantastic that they are willing to work with you through your anxiety. Just recently I’ve started to think that my anxiety is really holding me back. It causes my blood pressure to spike way up and I’m only 32. Not good.

    Beautiful words and I loved the message behind it. You’re not a failure if you continue to try. That’s all that anyone can ask for.

  4. Nobody who’s suffering from anxiety is a failure. Because imagine, they’re fighting for a battle against their mind and themselves everyday, that’s how strong you are. You’re stronger than you think you. Have a lovely day.
    Love, Fads

  5. Just reading this post makes me so proud of you. I am so glad you know that this does not make you a failure. It shows you’ve grown as a person. Anxiety is not an easy thing to deal with, but with little steps you will get there. You may not have been able to go this time, but one day, before you know it, you will be at the appointment! You are already doing so well, You should be proud of yourself.

    Sarah’s Abode -xx

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