I’m Not Sure I Want To Blog Anymore

Hello everyone.
This is my first blog post in almost a week, and I’m writing it because I want you to know what’s been going on in my head lately when it comes to this blog.
For at least a month now I’ve been having this big time blogging crisis. And I’ve been thinking over and over that I’m not sure I want to blog anymore. And that it’s no use to have a blog since I have literally nothing to write about. And then I think this if I’m already have this crisis over my blogging I just should stop doing it. And sometimes I think that my blog is the most boring one ever, and that no matter what I do it will never be good enough. And then I go back to thinking that I’m not sure I want to blog anymore.

I Want To Blog

And when I think that I don’t want to blog anymore my thoughts usually goes like this.

I’m not sure I want to blog anymore or if I just want to have money.
Except that having a blog does not equals having money. And if you if you have a blog as small as mine it most definitive won’t give you any kind of it. And I’m fine with that. Most of the time at least.
But sometimes I realize how broke I am and how nice it would be to have an income. And since I can’t get a job at the moment growing the blog seems like a great way to get one. And then I realize how hard it would be to do that and then I feel like giving the whole blogging thing up.

I’m not sure I want to blog anymore or if I just want a reason to buy new makeup.
And now some of you will be thinking; Does she really need a reason to buy new makeup?
Well, I guess I do. Because if I didn’t blog it would feel like a total waste of money to buy anything new to my makeup collection. Not because I wouldn’t use it but because almost no one would see me use it. And it’s so weird that I think this way. Because I love makeup so much, and I wear it for me, because of how it makes me feel. But yet buying something new only for my eyes to see would feel like I was wasting my money.

I’m not sure I want to blog anymore or if I just want to wear pretty clothes.
This is pretty much the same as with the makeup. On days when I don’t blog at all I feel so much more like the anxiety suffering unemployed person that I actually am. And when I feel like that I don’t want to get dressed at all. But having a blog and being able to do OOTD posts makes it feel so much easier to get dressed.
And dressing pretty makes me feel pretty and feeling pretty makes me feel better. I might still suffer from a lot of anxiety but dressing up helps me feel a lot less sick from it.

I’m not sure I want to blog anymore but I do know that having a blog is good for me.
Since I started this blog I have started to feel so much more alive and it has really helped me to come out of my depression. So I guess I will stick to it for a little while longer. Even if it’s not all fun and games and piles of makeup.
Because even if I feel put down when almost no one reads my posts, or my OOTD photos don’t turn put the way I want them to, I do love to blog. And I love the blogging community and the feeling of being a part of something even more. And I do love to write, and to take photos, and to this and that and all the other stuff that comes along with having a blog to.
So like I said; I guess I will be around for a little bit longer. Hope that you want to stick around with me.

XOXO

21 Comments

  1. I am new to your blog and just stumbled upon this post. I can completely relate to this! I started a blog last year and posted consistently for 6 months and then stopped. I didn’t feel like I was getting a lot of followers and my blog just wasn’t growing even though I was regularly getting contacted by companies. Then several months later I decided to start a new blog. It started off great but then I stopped even quicker for a lot of the reasons you posted. It’s been difficult to decide if blogging is for me. I’ve received positive feedback but I guess not having a large following can really deter you from continuing to blog. But you’re not alone in feeling this way!

  2. Hi Ida! Saw your post over at BloggersUnited, like you I have started my blog out of depression. I want to feel better and have someone to interact with, even if it’s just my laptop. πŸ™‚ Oh, and I am unemployed too! I also love make-up (but never have the money to buy for the latest and I love selfies and OOTD with my kid (but can’t afford new outfit) so yeah, I guess my point it… whatever makes you happy just go for it! It doesn’t matter whether you have something new to showcase (at least for me) it is the internet anyway, no one knows if what your using is something new… or old (similar to my case) my clothes are sometimes hand-me-downs from my older sister, but who cares! No one knew about it, till now?! LOL. Keep your head up girl, I know the feeling! You’re not alone. πŸ™‚

  3. The reasons you’ve listed here are reasons why you should keep blogging! We all fall in to a blogging slump sometimes and feel like we’re not good enough but if blogging makes you happy and feel better then you should definitely keep doing it!
    Emma
    http://www.unf4bul0us.com xx

  4. Cristina

    Hey ☺️ I would start by telling you that you must set your priorities when it comes to your blog. If your reason for blogging is only to make money I would say that you try and see how you can do that. Contact companies and see if they are interested in having you review their products. But…I can’t guarantee it will work. I find that bloggers lately have these huge dreams of making money out of their blog which makes them stop the creativity. Personally, I don’t big for money and if someone reads it or not I’m fine with it. I blog for me! Because my mind has too many thoughts trapped inside and the only way to get them out is in writing. I would love to do books reviews for example. And I started slowly for books that I read. Maybe in time I will do it professionally, maybe not but in the end who cares?! All this to say that you should blog for you not for everybody else! And give yourself some time if you feel you need it and when you come back to it you will feel better! Don’t give up on your dreams! ❀️❀️❀️

    • Ida

      Yes I’m thinking like this too. I’ve been to traped in all of this “everyone elso want to grow and make money so that’s how I should be thinking too”. But right now I need to do it for me. Because just like you I have so much thoughts in my head that needs to get out./love Ida

  5. Nora

    I just wanted to let you know that I for instance am reading your blog, even if I do not comment. πŸ™‚ And I can absolutely relate – blogging is a form of self-care because it actually makes one get dressed nicely and mad up and that is great in my books. I will start a blog this week-end and I guess I will face the same questions you’re raising here…

    However: I enjoy your blog. It is relatable and I kind of like that it is not sponsored and super professional (yet).

  6. Just stumbled upon this post from your twitter feed! Don’t feel so down about blogging – alot of people are in the same position and can relate to these reasonings! Everyday I look at my blog and think it’s rubbish and no point – but it helps me gain confidence and is also something I enjoy doing. Remember – Everyone starts somewhere – your blog is lovely, as are you ?

  7. I think your being way to hard on yourself here! I enjoyed this read because it is so honest and you say what a lot of us are thinking. Take it one day at a time, post when you want to and share it out as much as possible. There are so many platforms to do this
    Laurie x

  8. Blogging is a longer end game and a lot of people want things to happen faster than what actually happens. A lot of bloggers have said how it took them 5 years to get anywhere with their blog. 99% of bloggers quit so don’t quit! A huge part of success is showing up consistently and not quitting. Sorry if I got all Oprah on you. πŸ˜‰

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