My Beloved Antidepressants Wasn’t Helping. Mental Health Update #2

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Hello darlings.
About a week ago I wrote about the blogging slump that I had been in, and I also wrote that I was slowly coming out of it. Except that I wasn’t coming out of it, I just had a good day and really, really hoped for the slump to be over. And it wasn’t just a blogging slump, it was a life slump and I had no energy at all and just cried all the time, got these weird headaches and started to fall asleep in the middle of the day and that’s when I realized that maybe my beloved antidepressants wasn’t helping me anymore. So to make a long story short; I mailed my therapist, got an appointment with both her and my doctor yesterday and now I’m going of the meds I been on since around May last year and after that I will be trying a new kind. I will be taking half of my regular dose for a week and after that I will take that amount every other day for one week and after that I guess I will try some new ones.

beloved antidepressants wasn't helping

Yesterday I didn’t even take my antidepressants but I took my anti-anxiety pills, and we went to the doctor by taxi and then we took the bus home and it all went fine. And then I fell asleep for a while,  because the anti-anxiety pills makes me really tired and when I woke up I just couldn’t get myself to take the antidepressants because I just didn’t want to feel like I’ve been feeling for the past month or so. And today I took the half dose just like we agreed on and I’ve been doing really fine.

By fine I mean that I’ve been having more energy that I’ve been having in a really long time. I’ve went to the store with Mr A, I’ve been outside playing with Little Miss I, I had a caffè latte without getting tummy pains and I even made some pilates which I’ve been wanting to do for weeks but haven’t had the energy for. And like I know that it might be mostly the placebo effect that makes me feel this good, that the knowledge that I will be feeling better makes me feel better already but I don’t really care why I have all this energy and love for my life right now, I just care that I have it and I plan to use it well. (And by that I mean I will play with the cats, wear pretty clothes and eat all the candy.)

Right now I’m hoping that I will keep doing this fine while the meds is getting out of my system, and that I will have the energy to take walks and that I will be able to really laugh because that’s something that I’ve been missing and I also really hope to get back into this blogging thing that I love with all of my heart. So until later…

XOXO
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March 18, 2016
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5 Comments

  • Reply Fergus

    Good to hear things are getting better for you. It’s only since I got into twitter that I realise how many people suffer from anxiety and depression. I thought it was only me and a few others for years. Stay well Ida.
    Regards

    March 18, 2016 at 8:57 pm
  • Reply Bettan Edberg

    “Ljus o kärlek”

    March 19, 2016 at 12:36 pm
  • Reply Lee Bodily

    From someone who has come off antidepressants too …. One day at a time and congratulate and reward yourself for every day you get through, and don’t beat yourself up for the days that aren’t so good. Now is a great time to do it too as the days are getting longer and we are seeing some much needed sunshine. Lots of positive vibes being sent your way xxx

    March 19, 2016 at 5:35 pm
  • Reply Fran

    Sending you lot of strength, energy and know you aren’t alone. You will get through this. xx

    March 19, 2016 at 8:33 pm
  • Reply Jennifer

    I am glad that you are starting to feel better! Keep on going. Remember, one day at a time.

    March 19, 2016 at 9:47 pm
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